It’s been a while, I know. I promised myself that if I started this blog that I would post daily and not go ghost….epic fail.
I’m not sure why I stopped blogging. A part of me believes that it was due to fear….of “what” I can’t be too sure. There are times I’m so scared of failure that I would rather not try. And then there’s times when I want to succeed so badly that I get scared and abort the mission prematurely. How can I ever win if I’m scared to lose?
At times I feel so insecure with my own talents and natural ability to create magic. I get so afraid that I start critiquing every little thing I do and eventually get myself so low that I figure there is no point and move on.
Does this happen to anyone else?
When I was active in my theater training I was often told by my acting instructors that I needed to get out of my own way. I would constantly hear how good I was on stage but I kept getting in my own way because I was too deep in my mind, replaying my thoughts over and over….thinking too much about every little thing. I know that is something that I need to work on and maybe in time this blog will help me overcome that flaw.
In any case, it feels good to be back.